Going Though A Broken Heart
byCarrion 20 Nov, 2017 15:12
So just last week I finally had the courage to express my feelings to the guy I'm going out with. He told me he liked me too before but now he already have to choose between me and the new girl he's dating. And he said the most painful words ever said to me "this should be our last, I hope we'd still be friends". I have never been shattered in my whole life. To make it worst, he's not even my bf. You know that feeling of rejection, of regret, of being unwanted, of being replaced. I came to a point where I compared myself to the new girl. She is a nice girl. Made me think low of myself. I question myself if I'm ever worthy to be loved by a man. Made me realize and hated myself for allowing the guy to treat me passively. I thought he wasn't fully moved on from his past relationship but now I saw him so inlove with the new girl. So how about me all those times we've been together? Was I just nothing? Was I not enough? Was I just a fleeting moment in his life? It made meme feel jealous and insecure. I have trouble sleeping at night. I always cry. I'm always bothered by the fact that I was humiliated and rejected. I'm always thinking about him and her and them. I kbow it's wrong but i always pray everytime bad thoughts sink in. I don't know what else to feel aside from being hurt. You know that feeling you finally realized that he didnt really love you. And that you saw him change to become a better person because he already found the girl he thinks is for him. I want to be happy for him but at the same time pity myself because why he never felt like that to me. Why I was just one of his previous girls he played with. I know it's partly my fault for allowing myself to be treated like this and God I'm so sorry. Right now I just want to surrender this pain and everything related to this. Take them. Replace them with your unconditional love. Help me guard my heart starting now. Help me to become a better woman so that I may be ready for the right man You have for me. Help me to live my life again without thinking about him or what he might think about me. I want fresh start. Thank you God.
bySgreys50on 21 Nov, 2017 19:02
When dealing with a loss of a relationship such as that (same with even a friend) you have to remember that it is all part of God's plan. If it was in his will for the two of you to end up together, then that's what it would/will be. However, if that is not what he has in store for you, then don't linger on it. Look forward to see what he has planned for you. I went through a similar situation not too long ago, and at the end of our relationship I was heartbroken and felt lost. I seeked a stronger relationship with Christ afterwards, and it helped me to realize that I needed to build myself. If it was that easy for some one to knock me down, I wasn't ready for that in the first place. Find purpose from the Lord, strengthen your faith, and remember to take each event of life and turn it into a lesson so that you may better yourself from it. God bless you